My Crossdressing journey - 4

After using same anklet for one year continuously i lost interest on that. I realize now why women changes their jewelry ever year. So I need something new to try on.
7) I wanted to try bra and chudidhar for a long time. One day, my house owners relative girl came to stay in owner's house(adjacent to our flat) for few days. She used to wash her cloths in the morning and keep outside for drying. One day she forget to collect in the night. I came from office at 11Pm in the night and fortunately my room mates left to his native. I waited till 12 midnight to grab that dress. After lights turned off in owner's flat, i grabbed the dress and came inside an locked. If anybody asks about the dress, i have prepared the answer. "I don't know, may be it came along with our cloths, may be my maid got it by mistake". I removed all my male cloths and i wear a dress bottom it is very tight as that girl is very thin. I tried to wear top but it is too small for physic. I felt very bad and my first attempt to wear a chididhar ended in a failure.

8)On one week-end day morning my room-mates aunt came to our room as she has some personal work in the town. She took a bath and left her cloths in the flat and they(room-mate and his aunt) left for their work. I slowly started searching her used cloths, to my surprise there is black bra. Without thinking anything i wear that, though it is of small size, it fit my body in a good manner. As i expected her dress is small for me to try on. But i enjoyed the bra for several hours. The perfume and sweat smell from the bra is very girly.

9) After one year, We shifted to a new flat where on our top floor 4 working women's used to stay. They put their cloths on the terrace for drying. I used to watch their cloths for several days, and i finally decided to stole some bra and pantie for me. But this attempt is failed as they tied the bra to the rope in a cryptic fashion. Till now i am ashamed of not able to remove the bra from the rope. I think they tie the bra to the rope so that it wont flew for air. So this one more failed attempt. I used to enjoy with my own anklet. I didn't get any new stuff for long time

10) The same year, my brother got married. So finally i can see some girls dresses in our home. In some festival vacation, One day i am alone in my home as everybody else went for shopping. I went to my sister-in-law's room and opened her wardrobe, there are all new dresses. I tried to wear them, but they are little small for my physic. Suddenly one nightie came to my hand. I wear it and it looks like a normal dress on body. i mesmerized by looking in the mirror.

My Crossdressing journey - 3

Here i am writing about my CDing further. The age between 20-24 was very busy in my higher education in Hyderabad, i stayed in men's hostel. So there is no opportunity to do a CD. But i utilized all the opportunities in my home whenever i go there.
6) After getting into the Job, i stayed with few other guys in a flat. Here also no much free time and no stuff to enjoy. But one day when i was waiting at bus stop, one guy is selling metal anklets for 20/-. I decided to get one for me, but i am very afraid to buy a stuff like that. Finally i took the 20/- from my wallet and put it in his hand and grabbed one silver coated anklet pair, he asked to buy brass coated one also. But i said one is enough. I came to my flat. Luckily my room mates are not there, so i went inside and locked the door and put the new anklets on my feet. Huh!!! After a long time i am wearing a anklet, and it is my own anklet. First own girl stuff!!! Those anklets has 5 to 6 bells which makes lot of sound while walking, i like them very much at the same time i am afraid of that sound .. may be anybody will notice that sound. It gives me great feeling. After that i wore this anklet whenever i am alone.

One day my room mates left for some festival occasion for one week. In that week i used to wear anklets immediately after getting inside the flat and keep them on me till i left to office next day.
I wanted to go out by wearing this anklet. But bells are making too much sound. So, i removed half of the bells from the anklets and keep them in a secret place for future use. And i put the anklet to my ankles and wear a jeans and T-shirt and went outside to have dinner. This is the first time i am going out by wearing any girl stuff. My heart beats are rising, but i controlled myself, as these are not visible to anybody becoz of low jeans and they are not making any sound. But the feeling of going outside is very great to feel.
I went to one shop, there is one girl who sells curry's. I looked at her ankles, she don't have anklets on her feet. At that time i feel very proud that, i have my own anklets.

My Crossdressing journey - 2

After completing the intermediate without wearing/using any girls products i came to home to spend next three years to study my bachelors degree. At that time i don't know that my CDing will change drastically

5) My age was 18 at that time, I get good privacy as rooms in our new house are pretty much closed. Weekly once or twice I used to drop my mom at my aunt's home in the afternoon and i came back to home for studying alone and in the evening i go and pick her again. So in the meantime i was alone in home to do CDing. I knew that mom was having 2 sets of payal(anklet).

One day I opened the cupboard and started searching for anything that is useful for me. I found one box inside the cupboard which contains a pair of ear studs(jhumkas), pair of toe rings and a golden necklace. After that i finally found the pair of thick anklets in the desk. Immediately i wear anklet, toe rings in my feet and put the jhumkas in my ear(pressed with my ear). I used to masterb*te by wearing these stuff in the newspaper and throw it in the drainage. Week after week i keep on adding the new stuff like bra, blouse and even i tried to wear saree though i didn't know how to wrap at that time.

One day i found a small crystal stone in my home, may be it from some saree or something, which looks exactly same as usually girl's nose pin. I stick some gum and put it on my nose, it looks like i had a nose pierced and have nose pin.
So at this age i tried almost all women's stuff as possible, i had a urge to wear salwaar, chudidhar etc.. But my dream was not came true as i don't have any sister.

At this time i was almost caught by mom, That was a Sunday evening time, my mom was washing cloths in the wash area behind our house. I saw there were lot of cloths, generally my mom wont come into home till she complete with washing. I took this as a chance and i dared to wear her payals, i came into bedroom and took the payals and wore them on my ankles. I dared further, i wanted to roam infront of my mom by wearing anklets and by hiding them with my trousers. I pushed the anklet upwards on my leg and trousers to downside little bit so that payal cant visible. I came near to my mom for drinking water. Till that time my heart was beating fast. Suddenly there was a calling bell sound. I don't know who is on the door, if i go and open the door the n i may not get the time or place to remove anklets from feet as i may need to sit with guests. So i walked slowly from my mom and went to room, and started removing anklets. I should make sure that my mom wont come from behind to open the door. This situation make me sweat and almost fainted by nervous. Calling bell keep on ringing, in this tension i took lot of time to remove anklet. My mom shouted from behind to open the door. I thought my mom is coming and i am going to be caught at this time. Luckily i removed the anklets and put them in my bookshelf and open the door. There was my aunt with her kids. Thank god!! I didn't open the door without removing the anklets. Till date i will shiver imaging by opening the door by having payal, those kids might make mess with that. Ha!! God!!! Thanks!!

My Crossdressing journey - 1

Cross dressing!!! Did i know this word at that time?? Definitely not. Did i know why i am doing like this? No. I don't know from when i started thinking of using girls stuff. I will describe my journey here as much as i collect from my mind

1) My age was 8 years at that time, when i tried girls stuff initially. I used to play with neighbourhood girl who is same age as of me. One day her bindi fallen while playing, i collected that and put it in my pocket. I was waiting for this moment from few days, i always wanted look my face in the mirror with bindi on my face. I came to my home, went behind the table by taking the mirror. I put the bindi on my face, fortunately at that day my father bought some Candy's which make your tongue red color. I used that candy to make my lips red. I looked my face in the mirror. Till now i can't forget my face, i was looking as absolute girl at that time.

After this incident, i am very much afraid by thinking why i am behaving like this and why i want to be a girl. After this incident I didn't tried for long time

2) My age was 11 at that time, I knew that i wont be getting any girl stuff in home as i don't have any sisters, so my mind started working to use common household stuff as girls stuff. For example i used torch lights holder ring as ear/nose ring. I used blouse hooks and converted them as nose pin and ear pins etc. I used to get lot of free time but no girl stuff to try on.
At this age i started h*mo se*ailty with one of my friend. I didn't know who initiated among us. We used to go to the terrace and kiss each other and hold each other pen*s etc.. Alternative days one of us need to play guy role(top) and another play girl role(bottom).

3) My age was 15 at that time, my mom bought fake golden bangles for herself and she used to keep that bangles outside. This is so much exiting for me as i am going to use the real girl stuff for the first time. But the problem is i hadn't got place to try as there is no much privacy as house is very small and open in all directions. So one day i was in toilet i heard bangles sound from adjacent toilet, it was our neighbour aunty's bangles sound. Immediately i got an idea in my mind, from the next day onwards i used to take 4 bangles in toilet and wear then inside that, and while coming out put it in my pocket.

This is one of the places where i almost got caught by mom. While coming out from toilet i put the bangles in my upper shirt's pocket. Before entering to home my mom asked me to take some stuff which is on the floor, with out thinking i bend down and took that stuff, my bangles are fallen down on the floor( luckily i took only two bangles at that time). Immediately i put my feet on the bangles and i took it and put it in my pocket back. Till date i don't know whether my mom noticed that or not, she was talking deeply with neighbours auntie about some topic at that time. After that i didn't used those bangles, though those are available for me in our cupboard.
Who knows my had doubt and wanted catch me red handed.. Still mystery in my mind....

4) My age was 16 at that time, i was studying intermediate. I was in boys hostel and college is also boys college. So any girl look like a actress and tempting for any boy in our college.
My body started growing hair on hands and legs, as you know girls don't like body hair i also didn't like it initially. I used to shave hands and legs. My room-mates feel my hand and legs looks like girls hand and legs. In winter we used to sleep in one bed to keep ourselves warm. One day my friends started pinching me at my nipple and kissing me. These touches are so tempting and started enjoying and didn't stopped them. Later one guy took this to next level, and he started kissing me on over my face and he hold my pe**s in his hand started shaking, i also did the same thing as i like it. We did this several times in our hostel days. But thank god!! i didn't give blow job to anybody.