My Crossdressing journey - 1

Cross dressing!!! Did i know this word at that time?? Definitely not. Did i know why i am doing like this? No. I don't know from when i started thinking of using girls stuff. I will describe my journey here as much as i collect from my mind

1) My age was 8 years at that time, when i tried girls stuff initially. I used to play with neighbourhood girl who is same age as of me. One day her bindi fallen while playing, i collected that and put it in my pocket. I was waiting for this moment from few days, i always wanted look my face in the mirror with bindi on my face. I came to my home, went behind the table by taking the mirror. I put the bindi on my face, fortunately at that day my father bought some Candy's which make your tongue red color. I used that candy to make my lips red. I looked my face in the mirror. Till now i can't forget my face, i was looking as absolute girl at that time.

After this incident, i am very much afraid by thinking why i am behaving like this and why i want to be a girl. After this incident I didn't tried for long time

2) My age was 11 at that time, I knew that i wont be getting any girl stuff in home as i don't have any sisters, so my mind started working to use common household stuff as girls stuff. For example i used torch lights holder ring as ear/nose ring. I used blouse hooks and converted them as nose pin and ear pins etc. I used to get lot of free time but no girl stuff to try on.
At this age i started h*mo se*ailty with one of my friend. I didn't know who initiated among us. We used to go to the terrace and kiss each other and hold each other pen*s etc.. Alternative days one of us need to play guy role(top) and another play girl role(bottom).

3) My age was 15 at that time, my mom bought fake golden bangles for herself and she used to keep that bangles outside. This is so much exiting for me as i am going to use the real girl stuff for the first time. But the problem is i hadn't got place to try as there is no much privacy as house is very small and open in all directions. So one day i was in toilet i heard bangles sound from adjacent toilet, it was our neighbour aunty's bangles sound. Immediately i got an idea in my mind, from the next day onwards i used to take 4 bangles in toilet and wear then inside that, and while coming out put it in my pocket.

This is one of the places where i almost got caught by mom. While coming out from toilet i put the bangles in my upper shirt's pocket. Before entering to home my mom asked me to take some stuff which is on the floor, with out thinking i bend down and took that stuff, my bangles are fallen down on the floor( luckily i took only two bangles at that time). Immediately i put my feet on the bangles and i took it and put it in my pocket back. Till date i don't know whether my mom noticed that or not, she was talking deeply with neighbours auntie about some topic at that time. After that i didn't used those bangles, though those are available for me in our cupboard.
Who knows my had doubt and wanted catch me red handed.. Still mystery in my mind....

4) My age was 16 at that time, i was studying intermediate. I was in boys hostel and college is also boys college. So any girl look like a actress and tempting for any boy in our college.
My body started growing hair on hands and legs, as you know girls don't like body hair i also didn't like it initially. I used to shave hands and legs. My room-mates feel my hand and legs looks like girls hand and legs. In winter we used to sleep in one bed to keep ourselves warm. One day my friends started pinching me at my nipple and kissing me. These touches are so tempting and started enjoying and didn't stopped them. Later one guy took this to next level, and he started kissing me on over my face and he hold my pe**s in his hand started shaking, i also did the same thing as i like it. We did this several times in our hostel days. But thank god!! i didn't give blow job to anybody.